I t have treated myself to a brand new kindle fire today. My mom approves cos it will get me to read more! Little does she know that I will probably be watching netflix and playing temple run on this thing more than I will be reading. I like it better than having a laptop all over me with cords tangling everywhere. Its a really nice device sofar.I would definately recommend it.

So, a lot has happened this week. I was so behind in my school work that i almost killed myself doing it to get it done by the end of the trimester, and i’m not even 100% sure if i’m going to pass half of my classes. Right now that is not on the top of my list of concerns. I have all of spring break now to rest my mind and just relax. I have been so overwhelmed due to the extreme amounts of multi-tasking that i have done. Now i have more time to take things one step at a time. The only thing on my mind now is the recent death of one of my friends’ dad. He was a great guy. Id always have sleepovers as a kid with my friend and of course he would be there and he was just super cool. I kinda looked up to him and saw him as a father figure (because i never really had one). I visited him a few weeks ago. He has been sick with cancer for 2 years now. When i saw him he looked horrible. It was hard to hold the tears back, but he still had that pleasant and humorous attitude that he’s always had since i’ve known him, which gave me a little better idea of what he was going through. I feel like the hardest thing for me was that i didnt want to accept that he was leaving us soon. I am overly positive and optimistic that i just kept holding on to the idea that he would be fine and that he would get better. Now i have trouble wrapping my mind around the fact that he is actually gone. Im sure that once i go to his funeral on Tuesday that i will be able to grasp the idea better, but right now im struggling. Its going to be really hard to hold the tears back at the funeral. He was a very good guy and he is very important to me. He will always have a special place in my heart. May he rest in peace.

Dear amelie, Dont be stupid. Think before you do stuff. Always stay positive. If you dont, you will be put into therapy forever! Be an overachiever! It makes you feel good and its better for you in the long run. Plus it gives you more of a reason to be a smart ass. Dont slack off. If you do mom will never leave you alone and you will feel awful but you will be too lazy to do anything about it and that just makes things worse. Be yourself and dont let anyone try to change you! Love, Your future self.